This is a think piece. It’s my stream of consciousness. Just read.
My dream car is a FORD. I just want to own a Ford.
I remember a time in Senior Secondary School when I talked about what car I would like to own. Then, we had club meetings every Wednesday. I was in Press Club. On this day, someone asked me what my dream car was. Without thinking much, I said “Hummer Jeep”. LOL! At that time, Hummer Jeep was trending, and it was really the only “big car” that I knew. Honestly, I thought that Hummer Jeeps were pretty ugly.
My love for Ford arose when I noticed the unique way Ford cars looked. Most peculiar was the logo. Rather than the typical logo that most cars had, Ford’s logo was simply its name. That drew me. Since then, my dream car has remained a Ford. I’ll get one someday.
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It is easy to get lost in the frenzy. The world is so loud, sad, chaotic, and rough. Right and left, there is always something to take note of… or else. You need to keep up with this, that, and everything in between. The stress that all of that comes with is remarkable.
At some point, you feel like you are in centre of a large square hall. Imagine with me for a second here. In that hall, a group of people are standing in all four corners, screaming at you to come. At this point, your heart is beating a mile per second. You don’t know where to go. You take a step left, and everyone at your right, front, and back shouts at you to stop. “No!!! What are you doing? This is where you are supposed to be,” they proclaim convincingly. You take a step forward, and everyone else does the same again. At this point, you are utterly confused. You take to shuffling. Right… no, left… no, forward… no, backward…
In the end, you go nowhere. This is when you realise that you can’t do what the world says. You can’t take the world’s advice. You can’t heed the world’s call. Else, you’ll do absolutely nothing.
This is how I feel sometimes. Do you feel the same way? Don’t give in to the pressures from around you. To do this, you need to quiet the voices and let your life be about you. Think about you want to do and do it.
I’ll let you know that it’s not that simple. Speaking from experience, I feel guilty, inadequate, or ashamed when I do not do what the world wants. To make things about me, I literally fight myself. For example, when I post things (let’s say an opinion) online, I have the urge to delete them immediately. My thoughts are that people think my opinion is trash.
When I find myself taking a step in the direction of those hypothetical people, I hold myself by saying (out loud) that my opinions deserve to be heard. Sometimes, I tell myself that I do not care what people think. For the most part, this works. However, the latter is still about the world. Thus, my ideal reason for posting my opinions online should simply be “because I want to”.
It’s tough. I’ll continue to strive to create my own narratives and take my own actions, simply because I want to.
These are 500 words (or more ?)! Talk to you tomorrow!